Nobody's Child

I was slowly passing an orphan's home one day.
And stopped there for a moment just to watch the children play.
Alone a boy was standing and when I asked him why
he turned with eyes that could not see and he began to cry.

People come for children and take them for their own.
But they all seem to pass me by and I am left alone.
I know they'd like to take me but when they see I'm blind
they always take some other child and I am left behind.

(No) mother's arms to hold me or soothe me when I cry.
Sometimes it gets so lonely I wish that I could die.
I'd walk the streets of heaven where all the blind can see.
And just like all the other kids there'd be a home for me.

R E F R A I N :

I'm nobody's child
I'm nobody's child
I'm like a flower just growing wild.
No mommy's kisses and no daddy's smile

nobody wants me
I'm nobody's child.

Copy : Nobody's child lyric

Lagu ini terdengar lirih terdengar di mobil yang kami tumpangi melalui jalan Pantura hari itu. Entah mengapa aku tertawa sinis mendengarnya. Mungkin tepatnya ini  jenis tertawa yang ditujukan kepada diri sendiri.

“Itu lagu yang kamu suka dulu kan?” kata ibuku dari kursi belakang

“Iya. Habisnya itu gue banget… nobody wants me… I’m nobody’s child”

“Iya kasihan ya… No mommy's kisses and no daddy's smile… ” kata ibu lagi sambil menyanyikan potongan syairnya sambil menepuk pundakku dari belakang

“Ha ha ha ha…” sahutku

“Tapi denger tuh I'm like a flower just growing wild… gimanapun kamu tumbuh juga kan? Jadi cantik dan  terus berjuang untuk hebat..”

“Mau aku jadi bapakmu?” kata seseorang lagi dari belakang

“Ehmmm… ga deh… terima kasih… bapakku satu aja… Bapa di Surga… ha ha ha ha…" 

Satu ingatan tentang sehari sebelumnya, tiba tiba melintas. 

 Aku menengok ke belakangku, membungkuk pelan dan menyentuh satu anak perempuan mungil yang menatapku dari balik besi penyekat ruangan itu.

“Ke sini… deket sama kakak…”

“Nama kamu siapa?”

“Septi”

“Kelas berapa…?”

Percakapan  sederhana, aku memperhatikannya. Rok lusuh, kulit berwarna coklat kusam dengan rambut yang berwarna merah kusam, wajahnya dan matanya polos menatap langsung ke wajahku. Aku mengelus kepalanya, membiarkan tubuhnya merapat di tubuh dan kakiku.

Sayang kunjungan kali ini hanya sekejap, karena aku sekedar menjadi pengantar rombongan suatu sekolah SMP untuk menyerahkan ‘sedikit’ bantuan.

“Kakak pamit dulu ya,… kapan-kapan kakak main ke sini lagi” janji palsuku yang tak tahu kapan akan jadi nyata.

Ada sesuatu yang terasa bergetar di hatiku. Aku pernah merasakan hal yang sama… merindukan hal yang sama di tempat dan cerita yang berbeda, … dan menyisakan rasa sakit yang tak bisa dipungkiri dan tak mudah terobati bertahun-tahun lamanya

Tapi hari terus berlalu dan berganti… dan akan selalu begitu.

Hari ini, semua rasa itu hanya jadi memori. Dan anak kecil yang ditinggalkan itu sudah jauh berubah…

Maafkan aku dek… aku tak bisa berjanji apapun untukmu dan untuk lebih banyak lagi anak sepertimu,… aku tak punya kasih yang besar buat kalian seperti  kakak-kakak lain yang di sini  mengasuh kalian… aku Cuma punya Yesus… yang sangat mengasihiku dan mengasihi kalian… itu saja. 

Buat  Septi anak rumah singgah, 16 Apr '11

lagu 'keren' terbaru buat nobody's child...

Jamia Simone Nash and Impact Repertory Theater
Raise It Up Lyrics   

No father figure in the house
and I'm wonderin' how I'm gonna work it out
oh, my friends keep on tellin' me how I don't need that man 
but they don't really understand
there are far too many pressures in reality 
but dealing with the pain and stress and poverty 
and I gotta be myself because there's nobody else for me (Noooo)

(heading there with me) sometimes it takes a different kind of love to raise a child
(so don't give up) so don't give up
(when pressures come down) sometimes it takes a different kind of dream to make you smile
(so raise it up) so raise 
(hang in there with me) sometimes we need another helping hand to show the ways
(so don't give up) so don't give up
(when pressures come down) sometimes it seems impossible and that's why we pray
(so raise it up) we raise

[HOPE] seems to be nothing left for me mommas gone daddy didn't wanna be and now im all by myself wonderin where is love or
should I just give up 

life falls down on me, cuts into my soul but I know I got the strength to make it through it all cause I'm still standin
tall 
breaking through this wall im gonna give my all

[HOPE] Feelin like a motherless child hate cuts into my soul its beating me down can't find my smile on a face of a
motherless child
I'm gonna break down these walls gonna give it my all ya know
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeahhhh
(hang in there with me) sometimes it takes a different kind of love to raise a child
(so don't give up) so don't give up
(when pressures come down) sometimes it takes a different kind of dream to make a smile
(so raise it up) so raise it up
(hang in there with me) raise it up
sometimes it takes another helping hand to show you the way
(so don't give up, when pressures come down)
[HOPE] sometimes it seems impossible that's why we pray
so raise it up

[Thanks to Mariah for lyrics]